It is a fictionalized story about the US Navy SEALs (US Navy Special Operations force) on a mission to rescue a CIA agent, and unexpectedly uncovered an imminent terrifying terrorist threat. Though a fictionalized story, it is based on real life Navy SEALs operations. It was a great movie, extremely touching, and made me deeply appreciate what the military men and women do to protect their civilians. Although the context of the movie can hardly be applied to Singapore military because of how safe we are (as of now, which is indeed very fortunate), I know there are serious people (in the Singapore military) who are prepared to give up their lives to protect our people. And I know my husband is one of them, which is why I am so proud of him. Yes, indeed it seems a little far fetched that anything could happen to us in the near future, but sometimes I also feel that we are a little overly complacent over how safe our country could be. We are, afterall, a small country and very dependent on others in terms of economy, political strength and even our food are mostly imported.Anyway the movie kind of highlighted what it means to be a military spouse. After spending the last six months here in Laughlin, I realized this is the kind of life we will be having, even after this round of training. Air force pilot training is so full of uncertainty. After he finish his UPT this May and IFF in August, we will return to Singapore. BUT, we don't know if it is for good. He still has his next phase of training i.e. conversion and he could be doing it in Singapore or US. The training will last 9 months, and after that, he might be posted again. After his 9-month conversion training, he might be sent overseas for detachment, which can be 2 years or more. So the uncertainty lies, whether he will be posted, when, and for how long. And I can only go with the flow. Well, I am not complaining, but it was more than what I had imagined it to be. I knew it would involve a lot of being away from Singapore, just that I thought it would be more structured so I could have plans.
What this means to me? The worst part is being away from family, not being there when things happen. Being away from friends, cos these are great friends who know me so well and whom I treasure. Giving up my career, though I have no ambition of climbing the corporate ladder, I would love to have the financial freedom to spend on people whom i care and things i enjoy doing. Also, because it is so difficult to take leave for him, seems like there will be a lot less travels in the future.
But I truly believe this is all worth it, because of the man I am doing this for. He thought me the many values in life, always being my role model. He makes me laugh and has learned to know when I am upset. He makes time for me despite his 12-hour work days. His passion for his work, the brotherhood he has for his airforce mates. And for who he is, I am so proud of him. Hence, having a life with him is better tnterehan having a life with anything else.
Yes, I seem to have a lot of thoughts lately. Probably cos of all the free time I have. Other than cooking a lot, I haven't been doing anything extraordinarily fun lately. And I have no intention to bore this blog with all the food pictures I have. I do hope that I have something more interesting to post in the near future!
