mental distress

Read this report on sunday times and i seriously think i m highly at risk of mental disorder.

"Perfectionists are at risk of having mental problems, US studies show."

There are three categories according to the report:
1. Self-oriented strivers who struggle to live up to their high standards and appear to be at risk of self-critical depression
2.outwardly focused zealots who expect perfection from others, often ruining relationships
3. those desperate to live up to an expectation they're convinced others expect of them, a risk factor for suicidal thinking and eating disorders.

I m so sure i fall into the first category.

some symptoms i experience:
1. I either get on very well with people or not at all
2. cannot bear a messy desk ( i always think my room is unsightly)
3. impossible to leave a job half-done, to finish the next day (does not apply to work but when i have something i want to do/eat, i usually have to do it immediately, even if it makes no practical sense)
4. put in ludicrously long hours redoing tasks, chasing an ideal only they could see (ya, thats why i always complain that i m inefficient)

ya... i dun feel stress.. but i think i m unknowingly. and its showing up in all physical conditions.

netball

my... my misery did not end with the last day of simulation... its gonna bug me for at least another year i think. bless me.

anyway, i went to try out for a netball club last night! which the very sweet diana introduced me to. It was a friendly game with temasek poly so we din really train. But warm-up was a series of drills which I used to do six years back when i was still in st nicks netball - running up and down the netball court, side-steps,tiny-steps-on-your toes-and sprint, lunges, side shuffles, sumo squats - all up and down the court... it feels so good to be doing all these again. though i must say i am far from the level of fitness i had back then and i got tired rather easily, it was still enjoyable. i would love to be fit again haha. but i am still not officially in the team yet.. its like a probation. I hope i will be good enough.. and of cos, i hope the people are nice enough to make me wanna stay(seems to me that they are quite mean and not very friendly actually). netball is still me fav game :)

and yea! its the weekend again!

things that keep me going.

vitagen and skippy chunky peanut butter on toasted breadtalk wholemeal (thick) bread to kickstart my day.

saturdays with my girls- shopping, coffee sessions, movies, good food. and soon, arcade, pool, bowling, ktv, etc etc.

daily doses of fruits.

and the very thought of our life together in three years' time.

477

this bunch of people and the memories we share are the most important part of uni life that i will bring along with me. three years of friendship.. and i guess some things have changed. each of us are getting busier with our own lives -other friends, work, school, projects, careers, relationships. Though we still make an effort to meet on our birthdays, the bond has weakened, i must say. Each of us now has a new perspective in life. Nevertheless, i will not forget the crazy times we had.

we always talked about going on an overseas trip together. they were never successful, and kukup is the furthest we have been to together. still, the trip was fantastic - the ktv sessions, mahjong with stan's mum, bbq and seafood, the prawn crackers the host auntie made, popsicles on a hot day, firecrackers at night and the one which flew into the warehouse window, the horrible nasi lemak we had for breakfast, the dog at the kelong, fishing the whole day and getting nothing, and how i gained 3 kg from all the eating.

how we can look so good together in formal wear

a steamboat dinner for jac's 20th birthday, but she's not here.

2005 new year at huafeng's house

stanley's 22nd birthday at an okinawan restaurant, the cleo cover boy, and how we drank and drank and laughed and talked so much at Colours bar after that.

my 20th birthday, a three course French dinner at Four Season's hotel, and KTV at Partyworld

Sentosa with huimin, yingni, stan and huafeng. Had sakae sushi buffet, and then to ikea where we took photos as if we are in our homes, and got scolded by the ikea representative. And weisheng who actually believe the lie that those were taken in my home.

Stan's 23rd birthday at pitstop. Taboo is super fun. and we went to have zi char and ordered only one chilli crab dish, which was 90% eaten by me and joey.

my 21st birthday: the surprise birthday cake at DND the night before, BBQ in the DAY, and all the help in preparing for the celebration at night.

Weisheng's 23rd birthday at huimin's house. humin said she will cook, but she only did one dish and the rest was done by her mum. i love how this looks like a family picture.

CNY 2007 at weisheng's house.. yes, weisheng's house! how we joked about weisheng's cute younger brother.

picnic at fort canning, turned out to be a pigging session on wooden bench. love the cakes at PS cafe at dempsey road, where we went after the picnic.

stan's 24th birthday. stan, i must say u are the lucky one whose birthday we celebrate every year, with PLENTY of photos.

i feel so pampered and paiseh at the same time. everytime i buy chinese new year goodies or mooncake for quan's parents during the festivals, they always end up buying more for me. this mid-autumn festival, quan's mum bought me two boxes of mooncakes! and i only gave them this box of 8 minis and one box of 2 yam mooncakes... seems so little la. though i think they would not mind such stuff.

yeap they are really nice to me. while quan is in faraway US, his family celebrated my birthday for me this year. i got to choose where i wanna eat (we went to the thai restautrant all of us like, in jurong) and had my fav-chocolate cake.. yum! i m really glad to be part of the family :)

molten chocolate cake

today i attempted for the first time the molten chocolate cake. oh man, i can't get more blur u know. i forgot to remove the pan from the bottom rack n hence my cakes were uncooked at the base (cos the heat from the bottom heating element was blocked)... so i had to re-pour the batter into the cups n bake again. i was rather sure it would not turn out nice already, because the batter is not smooth anymore. ya so i baked the cakes again... and i think i baked it for too long, cos it was completely baked in the end, meaning the centre is not molten la! ah.. still edible la, but its rather bad that the molten chocolate cake din turn out molten? haha.. but it tastes good hehe.. so i am pretty sure the next time i try, it will be a success. will then try to perfect it!

dreams

life as a student has ended and its time to work towards the many dreams i have.